And now it seems that I have found, Nothing at all, I wanna hear your voice out loud, Slow it down, slow it down, Without it all, I’m choking on nothing, It’s clear in my head, that I’m screaming for something, Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all.
one of my goals in life is to be someone’s maid of honor. i feel that i only have a few friends that would even consider me to be their maid of honor, and i am slipping away from them slowly, each and every day. my one best friend (since 5th grade) is most likely to get married soonest, because she is already moved into an apartment with her boyfriend. but she moved to PA a while ago, and has a friend who has been there with her since she moved. me and my friend don’t talk every day, but we are always there to see each other whenever we can. i just feel like i need to make more effort in order for it to happen.
my other friend barely even talks to me and never really texts me to ask me if i’m home… and when i tell her i’m home from break, she doesn’t even try to hang out with me.
and i don’t even think i would be nominated for anyone else but my little sister. she said i would be. but i feel like that would change… she’s only 13.
the reason why this is such a big deal to me, is because i won’t be getting married. not because i don’t feel like i will ever be loved, shit, i will most likely have boyfriends. but honestly, i don’t want to marry anyone. i don’t get the purpose of marriage. and i don’t want to marry anyone, especially knowing that most people get divorced nowadays (and nothing lasts forever - truthfully)… so that’s the reason why. i just want to be a part of love.
PLEASE HELP! i am currently fundraising for RELAY FOR LIFE. if you don’t know what that is, you should really get to know it. it helps raise money for cancer. it would really mean a lot to me and my school if you helped donate… 1, 2, 100 dollars - NO MATTER THE AMOUNT, EVERY DIME HELPS!